Katherine "Kissin' Kate" Barlow (
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OOM: Room #25 (WARNING: Contains triggery content)
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After Guppy takes Alex home, Kate eventually does make it to the fire to warm up. Of course, by this point her body is already warm; it's her heart that feels chilled. She dispenses with the tea, and just takes the whiskey for a second and third drink.
It's late by the time she's able to muddle through her thoughts well enough to drag herself upstairs. All she wants to do is collapse into her bed and sleep, but once she reaches the landing--
Doc.
He'll be expecting her.
She stands there for a moment, gathering her wits about her.
I don't want him to see me like this.
She swallows hard, steeling herself for what she knows she has to do next. She can't just bypass his room without a word; not when they've been spending so many nights together. Not when he'll be expecting her. Not when they've just had the intimacy 'conversation.' She'll pull herself together long enough to tell him she needs a quiet night to sleep. Everything's fine, she just misses her own bed. She'll be right as rain come tomorrow.
When she stops outside his door, she doesn't take out her key and walk in. For some reason, tonight she knocks.
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After Guppy takes Alex home, Kate eventually does make it to the fire to warm up. Of course, by this point her body is already warm; it's her heart that feels chilled. She dispenses with the tea, and just takes the whiskey for a second and third drink.
It's late by the time she's able to muddle through her thoughts well enough to drag herself upstairs. All she wants to do is collapse into her bed and sleep, but once she reaches the landing--
Doc.
He'll be expecting her.
She stands there for a moment, gathering her wits about her.
She swallows hard, steeling herself for what she knows she has to do next. She can't just bypass his room without a word; not when they've been spending so many nights together. Not when he'll be expecting her. Not when they've just had the intimacy 'conversation.' She'll pull herself together long enough to tell him she needs a quiet night to sleep. Everything's fine, she just misses her own bed. She'll be right as rain come tomorrow.
When she stops outside his door, she doesn't take out her key and walk in. For some reason, tonight she knocks.
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He doesn't even hear her knock -- the first time -- and on the second time, he glances over at the door and then stands from the desk.
"Who is it?"
He's already unlocking the door before there's even an answer.
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She braces herself against the jamb with one hand. She isn't drunk, or even really tipsy; she just craves the support of something solid, that won't crash down or collapse beneath her.
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"Y'forget your key?"
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"No. No, you're right, I should'a..."
She shakes her head at herself, rubbing at her brow with the thumb of her free hand.
"M'sorry. I just... jus' wanted t'let you know I was headin' upstairs for the night."
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He's standing against the porch railing, watching Samuel debate with himself about exactly how he wants to word this...
"Upstairs?"
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"Yeah, m'real tuckered t'night. An' seein' as you're doin' so much better now, I thought maybe I'd just take a night in my own bed."
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The wheels are turning, gears grinding in his head, pieces falling into place (or so he thinks, so it seems) as he tries to make sense of her words.
"...you don't want t'stay?"
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Her focus never climbs higher than his waist. Right now it's trained on the toes of her boots.
"It's just for t'night."
She thinks.
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Doc steps forward, reaching his hand out.
"Kate, darlin'...what's the matter?"
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But she takes a step back when he steps forward.
Her eyes meet his briefly before she looks away again, shaking her head.
"I jus' thought... it'd be nice. For a change. Just... jus' the quiet."
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I can be quiet...I'm already quiet.
"I don't..."
Understand.
(Her eyes are a bloodshot red, her expression blank and tired. It scares him.)
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"I didn't... didn't think it was such a big thing."
That's a lie and you know it.
"Given we ain't married or anythin'."
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He hooks his thumb into the belt loop on his trousers, leaning lightly against the doorjamb opposite her. His other hand settles on the back of his neck.
"There's been some awful strange happenin's lately."
Around the bar, too.
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He looks to the ground.
"I just don't understand why it's gotta be a change, s'all. You been changin' quite a bit the last few weeks...and s'worryin' me. If...if m'doin' something wrong, you'd say, right?"
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She wraps her arms around her middle defensively, brow furrowed in question.
"Nothin's changed, I just... I just want to be alone tonight!"
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He lifts his head to look at her face.
"We ain't done more'n kiss each other in weeks. You won't even sleep close t'me in bed no more, I wake up lookin' at your back or wonderin' jus' how early y'must'a risen t'beat me out of bed -- I know the horses ain't in need'a that much attention -- and y'can barely stand t'look at me right now--"
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There's a crack in her resolve, thin line between her brows as her face threatens to crumble. But she holds it together.
(Barely.)
"You said it didn't matter!"
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His chin lifts slightly as he swallows down the boulder-sized lump in his throat, dropping his voice.
"I still love you regardless, but with how strange you've been actin' lately towards me, I can't...I'm wonderin' if I ain't givin' you what you need."
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Don't you cry. Don't you cry. Don't you cry. Don't you cry. Don't you cry. Don't you cry.
"No..."
She swallows hard, but can't get her words past the lump in her throat.
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They can continue this conversation in the privacy -- and safety -- of his room.
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His eyes focus on the lock, as he turns it.
"Rough night?"
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"No."
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The kittens, glad to see their 'mama', uncurl from their pile of blankets on the couch, lazily stretching before slinking their way over to wind around her ankles.
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