Katherine "Kissin' Kate" Barlow (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
ikissdhimbck) wrote2009-08-07 03:03 am
ikissdhimbck) wrote2009-08-07 03:03 am
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OOM sorta: Bill's room
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He doesn't say a word as he escorts her out of the stables and up the path to the bar. She doesn't blame him, and so she remains respectfully quiet, letting him decide when he's ready to ask the questions she knows are coming. It gives her time to process everything, anyway. Time to catch her breath.
However, when they enter the bar and he leads her towards the stairs rather than to the staff offices, she looks at him quizzically.
"Where we goin'?"
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He doesn't say a word as he escorts her out of the stables and up the path to the bar. She doesn't blame him, and so she remains respectfully quiet, letting him decide when he's ready to ask the questions she knows are coming. It gives her time to process everything, anyway. Time to catch her breath.
However, when they enter the bar and he leads her towards the stairs rather than to the staff offices, she looks at him quizzically.
"Where we goin'?"
.
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What happened with Ramon, what they've been talking about, the situation between them or something else entirely.
Whatever it's for, an apology isn't want he wants. In truth, he doesn't know what he wants, but it seems whatever it is, isn't something he can have.
She's quiet, but he can still picture her at the door, ready to open it and leave.
"Kate-- "
He doesn't know what to say. He's run out of things to tell her, arguments to make, and it feels like they're two walls talking at each other.
He can see where she's coming from, but can't fully understand it. She seems to know what he's saying, but can't alter what she's already chosen to do.
"Y'don't gotta apologize. There's just some things... ain't no one can change."
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"Y'asked me what's the point," she mutters quietly, keeping her eyes on the door. "Why it's worth throwin' my life away.
"Bill, my life is already gone. I ain't got nothin' else t'throw 'way. This is all I have. An' it ain't much ... but I don't got a family t'go back to, or a home t'keep, I ain't got no money or possessions, no land and no name.
"If I die out there, ain't no one will miss me.
"But, before I go, they're sure as hell gonna remember me."
And with that, she turns the knob, and leaves the room.
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He turns around but she's already out the door. He takes a half step after her then stops, realizing that she's gone.
Guilt and frustration grind in his belly and he's stuck wrestling with it all.
Finally he turns back to the desk, hesitating before picking up the rifle.
He needs to check on Ramon.
When he gets there, the stables are empty.