"Handful. I don't make it habit to think on them all too often," he admits. "Otherwise I'd sleep worse than I already do."

It's an honest admission, and one he doesn't tell many people, and he doesn't look at her when he says it, just focuses on the way ahead.

"Every man I ever shot, it was either gonna be him, or it was gonna be me. But that don't make me proud of the fact that I got blood on my hands and lives to my name. We did the right thing, gettin' justice for John. It wasn't pretty. Killin' never is, but sometimes...you just can't help it."