Her cheeky grin is short-lived. She doesn't grasp why he 'can't' have a drink the way a modern woman might, doesn't know what Alcoholics Anonymous even means, but she understands the rest of it. She understands it the way a banker may not know a thing about deep sea diving, but they know the feel of a rock in your belly that drags you down.
She glances out ahead.
"Yes, well. The thing 'bout that is the memories always come back. No matter how much y'drink t'try an' drown 'em out. Best y'can hope for is feelin' numb for a while; hopin' old ghosts don't come 'round talkin'. S'that freedom? I dunno. Still feels like a cage t'me. Like I'm crawlin' outta my head jus' t'let somethin' else crawl in."
She leans forward to pat Rachat's neck, Tommy's chuckle rattling her bones. Her mouth twists, the question catching her off guard.
"I ain't freedom, Tommy. I'm just a dust devil kickin' up earth. This place puts on a real good show, though — "
When she looks at him again, her smile has resumed its wild abandon.
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Her cheeky grin is short-lived. She doesn't grasp why he 'can't' have a drink the way a modern woman might, doesn't know what Alcoholics Anonymous even means, but she understands the rest of it. She understands it the way a banker may not know a thing about deep sea diving, but they know the feel of a rock in your belly that drags you down.
She glances out ahead.
"Yes, well. The thing 'bout that is the memories always come back. No matter how much y'drink t'try an' drown 'em out. Best y'can hope for is feelin' numb for a while; hopin' old ghosts don't come 'round talkin'. S'that freedom? I dunno. Still feels like a cage t'me. Like I'm crawlin' outta my head jus' t'let somethin' else crawl in."
She leans forward to pat Rachat's neck, Tommy's chuckle rattling her bones. Her mouth twists, the question catching her off guard.
"I ain't freedom, Tommy. I'm just a dust devil kickin' up earth. This place puts on a real good show, though — "
When she looks at him again, her smile has resumed its wild abandon.
"Jus' wait until y'really go for a ride with me."