She makes a sharp noise. Dixie's words shock her, and she isn't sure if she's trying to gasp, or laugh, or scold her; so it comes out as none of these things, and all of these things, turning her eyes wide.

She blushes.

"I — I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with him. He's the only thing in this world that I want, an' I can't have him. Nothin' else seems t'matter. Reputation, honor, virtue, a future... I jus' wanted t'feel — like there was someone out there who gave a shit 'bout me."

Someone who wanted her. Someone who didn't look at her with cold, dead eyes.

"An' I knew he wanted me, so I — I took advantage. But he left, callin' me names. It only made everythin' so much worse."